Life of BB

I am well aware that the tone around here lately has been quite somber. Sorry to be a buzz kill but this is life. Ups and downs. And sometimes it's on pause on down. So to take away some of that here are somethings that I want, am excited about, reading or love as of late. Want : Reading Loving Excited for the weekend and then to head to mom's. Happy for : This message and these wooden people

Found encouragement here : This perfect stranger's blog post: All things heart and home and These lyrics : "Don't worry about a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right. Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!" Rise up this mornin', Smiled with the risin' sun, Three little birds Pitch by my doorstep Singin' sweet songs Of melodies pure and true, Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:") Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right." Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!" Rise up this mornin', Smiled with the risin' sun, Three little birds Pitch by my doorstep Singin' sweet songs Of melodies pure and true, Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:" Singin': "Don't worry a...

seems to be the thing I keep saying over and over. It applies to many things. My life, my friends, motherhood, being a wife, having a career etc. etc. Just not how I pictured it. I have a huge decision to make within the next few weeks that could be quite amazing. It will leave me more tired, challenged, scared and possibly in a better place than I am now. It's a tough choice to make or not, and I am struggling with it. I have given it up to God a bunch of times, only to take it back from Him and tackle it on my own. Clearly, this is the wrong choice to do but I am just so lost with which way to move. I keep remembering times I felt carefree and truly happy. Twice. I know they are around the corner again, in either what I pick to move. But for now, I am still.