Not quite how I pictured it...

seems to be the thing I keep saying over and over. It applies to many things. My life, my friends, motherhood, being a wife, having a career etc. etc. Just not how I pictured it. I have a huge decision to make within the next few weeks that could be quite amazing. It will leave me more tired, challenged, scared and possibly in a better place than I am now. It's a tough choice to make or not, and I am struggling with it. I have given it up to God a bunch of times, only to take it back from Him and tackle it on my own. Clearly, this is the wrong choice to do but I am just so lost with which way to move.

I keep remembering times I felt carefree and truly happy. Twice. I know they are around the corner again, in either what I pick to move. But for now, I am still.

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A room fit for a beatiful baby boy....

I wrote this post about a week before I had our son. I never posted it to my blog but wanted to share. It's almost been a month since baby B's arrival. Things are still a bit upside down over here, but boy are we in love !!! It took a bit but it has all finally come together, I have some more final touches but not too much to go. This is the most modern room in our home, even with it's vintage touches. It took me a while to figure exactly which direction I wanted to go with in regards to decorating. Bedding was hard because I literally hated everything. I thought I found something on ETSY but once we found out it was a boy, I wanted something a little more boyish. The one thing that I can say always remained constant regardless of the sex of the baby or style of the room, was the Jenny Lind crib. It's my favorite. Once I figured out what colorings I wanted for the room, I knew the black was the right choice. So here is the breakdown of...

Lipstick messages

Yesterday was my birthday. Nothing fabulous. At this point of my age, it's just another year older. Nothing monumental, not a new decade, nothing to go crazy about.... But it got me thinking about when my sisters and I were younger, (and anyone else who may have lived here from time to time) my mom would write lipstick messages on our bathroom mirror. Most of the times it would say "Happy Birthday" to us. And if I was having a terrible week , it would be something encouraging like "I love you, have a great day." Well, I definitely miss my lipstick messages. I wish when they were written, we had Facebook or Instagram. What a cool thing to have captured. Here is a picture of what one may have looked like, not ours, but similar.

My pregnancy and birth story

As I mentioned in my last post my pregnancy was very long. 10 months to be exact ! But in all seriousness it was the hardest thing, by far, that I've done. I was never comfortable, I was never over the moon excited because I was scared. Scared straight. Mr. B & I were very lucky, we only tried for three months before we got pregnant. We knew that we wanted to try in the new year of 2012. I was finished with school and ready for the next chapter in our lives. I was actually over ready. I couldn't wait to be pregnant, be a mom, and see Mr. B be a dad. My pregnancy started out just like everyone elses I assume, calm? I tested five days before I was due to get my period. I remember I had gotten the stomach bug that was going around last year and the Monday I tested, I was still off from work because of it. I texted my sister asking if she thought it was too early to test, she said no... so off I went to test. It came up with a faint line of...

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