Life of BB

I won't sugar coat it... it's exhausting. I wanted to give some insight on what I (we) deal with on a daily basis and maybe many of you who may be reading this. It's better to have a village right? First off, the planning. Lord, the planning. We can not eat at any new restaurant without calling ahead, speaking to the manager, possibly the chef, looking over the menu to find "safe" items, checking to see what may contain nuts that is fried in the same fryer of what our son would eat... There are no more eating places on a whim when it comes to places we go to with our son. Those days are reserved for my husband and I now. We must plan all the time. Any venue (concerts, plays, amusement parks, birthday parties etc.) we attend, we have to think of places that possible nuts might be, bring safe snacks, wipe down any surfaces that seem questionable for traces of nut proteins. We just want our kid to have fun and never be left out. I'd never let him miss...

A recent post that my sister in law wrote on FB got me thinking about this. Everything we seem to say we tend to have this insistent need to censor ourselves. We seem to always have to include a disclaimer on things we know could spark controversy or have someone possibly disagree with our actions. What for? Why can't we just live? I for one, know that people truly can't handle the truth (I do see how I sound like a 90's movie here) or possibly really don't want to hear it. I lived my 20s and most of my 30s in many friendships where I was very truthful with my actions and about theirs, and want to guess where those friendships are now??? It's just not worth it !  People don't like the truth. People like to see pretty pictures of our top hits on the Internet. Then, we take those pictures and manifest them into these grand moments. Moments we are pretty certain happen every day in the lives we view. Then bam ! We feel bad about our OWN lives... We do...

Randomly yesterday I was looking up Sutton Foster and came across this song. It kind of hit me in the gut. I've never heard it  or even knew it existed before yesterday. It's really beautiful. Time may hold in store for us glory or defeat Maybe never more for us, life will seem so sweet Time may change so many things, tides will ebb and flow But wherever fate may lead us always we shall know Come the wild, wild weather, come the wind, come the rain Come the little white flakes of snow, come the joy, come the pain We shall still be together when our life story ends For wherever we chance to go we shall always be friends We may find while we're traveling through the years Moments of joy and love and happiness Reason for grief, reason for tears Come the wild, wild weather if we've lost all we've won We'll remember these words we say till out story is done We may find while we're traveling through the years Moments of joy and love and happiness Reason for grie...

You all know the famous song, but what "momma" didn't tell you that when you become a mom yourself, the worry you'll feel. The crazy thoughts that creep in. The scenarios that make zero sense but yet, you still run them over and over in your head. She couldn't tell you of the immense love that you will feel for your kid. They literally can do nothing wrong and everything they do is just insanely perfect. Even, when they are acting out. She couldn't explain that to you before being a mom yourself because you could never quite understand. She couldn't explain to you that one day, you will question your every move, every action and feel sad. You'll feel like you could, should do more. But what? Life is a HUGE roller coaster. Some days we are on the very top, some days on the bottom, some days scared out of our minds and some days rolling into the safe finish line. Whatever today is for you, I hope you make it through on top.

Sure, we've heard that saying in relation to raising kids right? But what about living every day life? Sometimes it does take a village just to get through your every day routine. Most days we don't need extra hands on deck. But then, there are... those days. The ones where from start to finish it's a mess. Where everything goes wrong. When on top of everything going wrong, more bad news arrives. When it "feels" as if everyone else in the world seems to have it all. More than you could ever imagine... Those days is when it takes a village to pull us back up. I've had too many of those days to count. Loneliness creeps in and you find yourself re evaluating everything. Relationships, decisions, friendships, life lines...but then it seems God has a way of putting more hands on deck. More check in calls that didn't happen in the days prior, texts or even social media comments that help you along to make you feel less alone. I see no coincidence there, it...

I never wanted children. I never imagined my life with kids. Sure, there were the "what if" conversations with my husband and the picking of "what if" names... but I never really wanted them. THEN ONE DAY... it hit me. It was almost like a spark that went off, a light that brightened and all I knew is I couldn't wait to see us as parents. We were blessed to conceive quickly and 9 months later, love like I never knew came to us. I've been a "mommy" for about 4 and a half years now. There is no sweeter sound than hearing my son call my name. Sure, parenting is not for the weak of heart. It's tough. It's a constant worry of "am I screwing this up?, will he be okay? Why is this so hard for me and no one else?, and how did I ever love before this tiny person existed?" But man, it's worth those thoughts. My child is my ENTIRE world. Every choice I now make in life reflects back to him and is a conscious effort because of him. My...

Ain't this the truth. This session was quite the amusement; wind, one fiery toddler and a very patient photographer. I truly love how they came out. Many shots that captured us and the love we have for each other. Some people poke fun on why I have many professional pictures taken of Noah or us and that's okay. I want to always remember this time in our lives before he's too big to think we are cool or doesn't want to take them anymore. Here is my family. My love. My world. Hope you enjoy them as much as I did =)

I am sure everyone has asked themselves this once or twice along their life, "Am I good enough?" For me, I ask myself this question weekly. It's hard to just go along course of life without asking this question. Well, for me it is. When I was a kid, I would say I was a considered "nervous nelly". Be it my surroundings that caused my hyper sensitiveness or just my make up. Fast forward to my teenage/early twenty years when it was really just me. "Single" me. This "Beth" was extremely more care free and worried less about consequences/responsibility. She didn't last very long ;) Over the years, I gained more and more responsibility, an awesome husband and now a precious son. Life changes you. Life molds you for sure. But maybe you are who you always were all the way from the start? At 37, I have realized exactly who I am. It took a long time to get here and I am sure I still have more to go.I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I s...

For little B's 4th birthday party (four wow) we had a space themed party. I love to put parties together ! Especially themed ones ! Here are some of the parts of it that I put together:  Of course all the food was themed too !  Happy birthday little one ! How cool was this gift ???!!! A telescope !!

Is this thing on???? It's been a long time since I've been able to blog. Mostly because of this little guy and life. My life is filled to the brim and I love it. I recently received a comment on my blog that made me want to start this journey again. I may  not be able to  post many times, but I felt maybe someone out there may be looking for an idea for a Library themed party and I wanted to share Little B's. This past December Little B turned three. He LOVES to read. I figured I would grow on that and have a library themed party for him. All the decor and food were based off of books.  First up the decor : I picked plates w A, B, C's on them, a Humpty Dumpty plate, ABC letters, a banner with the word "READ" on it made out of a book. I also used some blocks we had and school look fabric for the food bar He was very, very, excited ! Ordered off of Zazzle and loved how they looked like a vintage library card. I asked everyone to bring a ...