seems to be the thing I keep saying over and over. It applies to many things. My life, my friends, motherhood, being a wife, having a career etc. etc. Just not how I pictured it. I have a huge decision to make within the next few weeks that could be quite amazing. It will leave me more tired, challenged, scared and possibly in a better place than I am now. It's a tough choice to make or not, and I am struggling with it. I have given it up to God a bunch of times, only to take it back from Him and tackle it on my own. Clearly, this is the wrong choice to do but I am just so lost with which way to move.
I keep remembering times I felt carefree and truly happy. Twice. I know they are around the corner again, in either what I pick to move. But for now, I am still.