Friday, April 11, 2014

The Coram Diner

For as long as I can remember, this particular diner has been the meeting place for my family and friends. When I was about 18, I would meet my mother and grandmother there practically every Saturday for dinner at 6. They attended church and I met up with them after for dinner. My grandmother would be the star of the show and of course, order the same two meals weekly. She would take her salad and if I can remember her dessert to go every single week.

I have seen this diner all times of the day, morning, early morning, night, and late night.  It has been there for stressful talks, cries, happy celebrations and comfort. Weird a place you go to eat, can be all that right? Well it's true. There are a lot of great memories of gathering here with my family.
And it has the best matzo ball soup around that can cure any sickness or heartache out there.

The visits to the diner have gotten smaller in size for my family. It is now it's only Mr. B, Lil B and myself that attend, but each time I go, I swear others are still there with me. Or at least, my memories are.

Friday, March 07, 2014

"Promise not to stop till I say when"

No words could ring more true than these. Especially, these days. This was/is our wedding song. We, of course chose it because it had a special meaning for us. But I also remember picking it for that simple line, "promise not to stop till I say when..."

I will never say "when" in regards to Mr. B. Sure, every relationship has trials and tribulations; because ups and downs, are part of life, right? But I will never say stop. All those cliché things you hear when it comes to relationships, really apply here. He is my rock and my anchor. I am his silly putty and waves. We balance each other, and I thank God for that every day. He pushes me when I want to give up and he calms me when I can't see past the storm. I hope I can and have done the same for him.

It's no secret that right now, my life, is upside down. The one thing that has kept me sane and kept me from giving up, is my family/friends. It's a small unit, that keep me strong when I need it. And lately, I have needed it.

Not sure, if they know how their words calm me, their hugs soothe me and the sound of their voice, just somehow makes it better for a bit. But they do. New things are on the horizon. I know it. I know for every storm there is a harvest. I am pretty sure it's coming.


Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Signs, words, feelings.... eggs all in one basket

  1. 1.
    the quality or state of being strong, in particular.
    • physical power and energy.
      noun: strength
  2. 2.
    a good or beneficial quality or attribute of a person or thing.

Sometimes something just happens and you can't help but to ask, hmm, what's next? Then something may happen and you can't help to wonder what is the bigger plan here?  If I only had a crystal ball, or a sign from God, to know what could come next?

For the past month this has been what I have been feeling. Hit after hit. People I love are sick, people I love are struggling, and most close to me are trying to make hard decisions and choices with me. I understand that it "could be worse" or "this is a season" or "God only gives you as much as you can take..." but really? Things are so up in the air that I am not sure where the next few months will go or few years to come will go.

I try to breathe, like everyone says. I try not to be angry, or think negative thoughts, but for what? What's the point in not being angry sometimes? Life is hard. It never is easy and for me, each time I get "comfortable" it has it's way of becoming uncomfortable.

For now, I will just enjoy what I have and live day by day. Maybe minute by minute. Each day I pray and each day I talk to my angels in heaven. I hope they hear me. I know God has this, I truly do, but sometimes, I wish I knew what he was doing...

Friday, January 03, 2014

Winter "One"derland

Our son turned one on Dec. 6th. It blows my mind just how fast a year can go when you measure and celebrate it by one month increments ! A few months before his birthday I began thinking about his first birthday party. I only had a few ideas then:

  1. I wanted a small family gathering at our house (our family is big enough as is, 24 is the number of close family members lol)
  2. I wanted it to have a theme
At first, I thought a mustache party would be fun and was what it I wanted for the theme, but then I was looking around Pinterest and saw ideas for a "Winter ONEderland." I was smitten. After all, Lil B would only be one once, so that theme could only work for a first birthday. The only issue was I didn't like the traditional colors that most people used for it or the penguins that most of the parties seemed to have, so I keep looking for more ideas. When I looked on Etsy and found one invitation, I knew immediately that was it and it would help with the rest of the decorations/theme for the party.

Here is the invitation I saw that sealed the deal for me on the theme:
Ting creates makes them. She was amazing to work with too, very professional, great response time and the invitations were amazing. Card stock thickness and a shimmer tone to them. Beautiful Ting Creates

Here is our actual invite. I played around a bit with the wording on it too.

Next up I wanted to find a label that would be used to seal our invitations. I found a great seller on Etsy who created a very cute label for us. purpleberryink
Of course ours, had our personal information on it, this was just the example.

Then the decorations began. It's great that Lil B's birthday is the same month as Christmas because our home would already be decorated for Christmas. And of course, any new items that were purchased could tie in for a later date too. Here is a view of my hutch and the full view of the dining room/kitchen.

I pinned this style of  how to frost a cake a few weeks prior to the party. Mr. B practiced to make sure we had an idea of how to do it. It wasn't that bad, but it took some time.

I wanted to have a sign with some cute word play on beverages on our fridge. My entire kitchen was up for everyone to do as they wished and pleased, so I figured this would be an easy way to show where the drinks were. I made up the names to the drinks the we had. Kind of silly for sure, but stuck with the theme. I placed Lil B's first year photo shoot pictures up too for everyone to see as well. Photos care of Jennifer Bennett Photography

I made this label on Zazzle for the "Melted Snowflakes" water

Here is the hot cocoa bar. 

The chili bar was nuts. I had three crock pots full of chili. The stove had rice or macaroni and then there were fixings. (wish I had more pics !)  Everyone loved it !
Chili !!

Dessert bar was up next. So many ideas. Here are  a ton of some shots of it. Pretty fun to put together.I used a table cloth to place on our counter, lots of dishes, cakes stands I already had and some green glass that my Uncle had recently given to us.

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I used a sled from Michael's to put the cupcakes on too. The small trees I also bought at Michael's to place on the cupcakes

"snow mat hats" aka Oreo cookie bites

"polar icecaps" aka vanilla meringues
"snowballs" aka powdered donuts
"snow covered pretzels" aka chocolate covered pretzels
I wanted to incorporate the theme in the favor we gave out as well. I found many ideas on Pinterest for a hot cocoa favor. I figured how hard could they be to make? Well, they were a bit of a pain but worth it in the end. Here is the sign that we placed by the favors :
Here is a close up of the hot cocoa favors. I made the label on Zazzle too.
And but of course to stick with the theme, why not have them in a sleigh !

Lil B's gifts were going to be set up in one corner of our dining room. I figured I would place a sign and a balloon to make it easier for everyone to know where to place his gifts. Here are some pictures :

I wanted to share the monthly pictures I had taken of Noah through out his first year with everyone and found a very cute way to display it. I found the idea of course on Pinterest. I already had an old window frame that I added some stick on snowflakes and ribbon. The pictures are hung by clothespins and I added the sign, "Oh what a year !" to the top of the window pane. The "Sledding" book worked well with the theme too. I purchased it off of Etsy and asked everyone to sign it for Lil B to look back on.

                                  And of course our birthday boy !!

Here is a link to my secret Pinterest board that I now have opened for everyone to see. Enjoy it ! Lil B's party idea

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Goodbye two o one three

Most times, people will say they are happy the year that has passed is now over. Some years, I too, said the same. But I have to admit, this year was wonderful for me/us. It was Lil B's first year of life which proves to me that life is truly beautiful. Lil B makes my dark days brighter. This past summer as my family lost one of our shining lights, he did the same. As we became dim and life looked grim, Lil B helped me see the beauty in life. I know that Kim didn't get to meet Lil B in real life, but I know she has since come to see him. She thought he was beautiful and her comments that live on in our cyber world, will always warm my heart.

2013 had many reasons to be beautiful. I gained a sister in law, a good friend welcomed her first baby girl, my best friend got engaged, we dedicated our son, we celebrated 6 years of marriage, someone I love gave me awesome news about themselves, my mother in law celebrated a monumental birthday, one sister in law received her bachelors and the other her masters, and I got to spend time with family and friends through out the year.

Sure 2013 had some endings and sad news too. I lost some, closed some doors, heard bad news, people I care for became sick and many tears were shed. But this is what makes life exist. 

I look forward to 2014. I hope to see other friends I haven't seen in too long, I hope to feel more relaxed, take some time off, breathe, be happy, help plan my best friends wedding, watch Lil B play and grow in his year two, make others smile and just live.

I wish all the same for you. Enjoy your lives, it's short. We have just a little time here to make it worthwhile.
Here are some recap pictures from my year, including special moments in other people's lives that touched mine too.  Happy New Year everyone.

Friday, December 20, 2013

One beautiful year

Little B turned one on December 6th, this by far, has been the fastest year of my life. And I have to say probably the best year too. Thought it would be fun to share the monthly pictures with whomever reads my blog =). Enjoy ! One to year two ! (or as me and one of my close friends likes to say, "year duece")

Monday, November 11, 2013

It's no secret...

that our bodies can do amazing things. Especially us women. It's also no secret that we are almost suffocated with the image of what the "perfect "woman should look like. Does that person really exist in life without a cook, maid, personal trainer, butler, life coach, plastic surgeon, etc. etc? Who knows. What I do know is this, I have seen beautiful women in my life, many of them. And guess what? They are not what are in those photo-shopped magazines. They are just simply beautiful.

When we make the decision to have a baby, of course we wonder what is going to happen to our bodies? Will we gain 200lbs? We will get stretch marks? Will we be able to lose the weight we gain? And maybe some don't even worry because they are just happy with being pregnant. For me, I was happy to be pregnant. I was overweight to begin with and my first trimester was a doozie. I ended up losing weight then(don't worry I gained it back) But I didn't gain too much because I had so much weight on from the beginning. But guess what, my body still lost control the last month of my pregnancy. Your body does what it needs to do in order to house and nurture that little baby. But after, when it's just you and no more baby, our proud battle wounds are still present. My lil B will be a year in less than a month. My body is not what it was prior to him and guess what, it never will be. Some days it bugs me and some days it doesn't. Today I found this and it really hit home to me. I wanted to share it because it truly is a beautiful way to put our new bodies.

"A mark for every breath you took, every blink, every sleepy yawn. One for every time you sucked your thumb, waved hello, closed your eyes and slept in the most perfect darkness. One for every time you had the hiccups. One for every dream you dreamed within me. It isn't very pretty anymore. Some may even think it ugly. That's OK. It was your home. It's where I first grew to love you, where I lay my hand as I dreamed about who you were and who you would be. It held you until my arms could, and for that, I will always find something beautiful in it."