Monday, January 05, 2015

Two o one five

Yep, it's 2015.
Let's see.
I haven't blogged in months.
Too a break.
Had nothing to say really.

My best friend moved to England, my father in law got better, birthdays & anniversaries came and went...


 Here are some highlights and what I realize some really bad pics of me ! LOL  :

 Showered my best friend with a tea party

Halloween

We turned 7



Thanksgiving
 Little B turned two on Dec 6. We had an awesome party at our house. Here are some pics












 Then there was Christmas




And then the year was over. I read 19 books in the year. Well since May, 21 if you count the two I read in Feb..... I've never read in my life and I now love it. Goal this year is 30 !

Made some resolutions too. None I'll share because I treat them like wishes you make when you blow the candles out on your birthday cake.

Here's to 2015 ! This is going to be an awesome year.

Thursday, May 22, 2014

Things

I am well aware that the tone around here lately has been quite somber. Sorry to be a buzz kill but this is life. Ups and downs. And sometimes it's on pause on down. So to take away some of that here are somethings that I want, am excited about, reading or love as of late.

Want :
MUG JADITE ANCHOR Hocking 8 Oz Green Opaque Crystal 1940's Hard to Find Fire-King Glass Dinnerware Cup 3 3/8" High Excellent Condition
Reading


Loving

Excited for the weekend and then to head to mom's.

Happy for :
This message

and these wooden people

Thursday, May 08, 2014

Rough night, tough morning...

Found encouragement here :

This perfect stranger's blog post:
All things heart and home

and
These lyrics :

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:")

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!"
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
"'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!

Wednesday, May 07, 2014

Not quite how I pictured it...

seems to be the thing I keep saying over and over. It applies to many things. My life, my friends, motherhood, being a wife, having a career etc. etc. Just not how I pictured it. I have a huge decision to make within the next few weeks that could be quite amazing. It will leave me more tired, challenged, scared and possibly in a better place than I am now. It's a tough choice to make or not, and I am struggling with it. I have given it up to God a bunch of times, only to take it back from Him and tackle it on my own. Clearly, this is the wrong choice to do but I am just so lost with which way to move.

I keep remembering times I felt carefree and truly happy. Twice. I know they are around the corner again, in either what I pick to move. But for now, I am still.

Friday, April 11, 2014

The Coram Diner



For as long as I can remember, this particular diner has been the meeting place for my family and friends. When I was about 18, I would meet my mother and grandmother there practically every Saturday for dinner at 6. They attended church and I met up with them after for dinner. My grandmother would be the star of the show and of course, order the same two meals weekly. She would take her salad and if I can remember her dessert to go every single week.

I have seen this diner all times of the day, morning, early morning, night, and late night.  It has been there for stressful talks, cries, happy celebrations and comfort. Weird a place you go to eat, can be all that right? Well it's true. There are a lot of great memories of gathering here with my family.
And it has the best matzo ball soup around that can cure any sickness or heartache out there.

The visits to the diner have gotten smaller in size for my family. It is now it's only Mr. B, Lil B and myself that attend, but each time I go, I swear others are still there with me. Or at least, my memories are.

Friday, March 07, 2014

"Promise not to stop till I say when"




No words could ring more true than these. Especially, these days. This was/is our wedding song. We, of course chose it because it had a special meaning for us. But I also remember picking it for that simple line, "promise not to stop till I say when..."

I will never say "when" in regards to Mr. B. Sure, every relationship has trials and tribulations; because ups and downs, are part of life, right? But I will never say stop. All those cliché things you hear when it comes to relationships, really apply here. He is my rock and my anchor. I am his silly putty and waves. We balance each other, and I thank God for that every day. He pushes me when I want to give up and he calms me when I can't see past the storm. I hope I can and have done the same for him.

It's no secret that right now, my life, is upside down. The one thing that has kept me sane and kept me from giving up, is my family/friends. It's a small unit, that keep me strong when I need it. And lately, I have needed it.

Not sure, if they know how their words calm me, their hugs soothe me and the sound of their voice, just somehow makes it better for a bit. But they do. New things are on the horizon. I know it. I know for every storm there is a harvest. I am pretty sure it's coming.

 

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Signs, words, feelings.... eggs all in one basket

strength
streNG(k)TH,strenTH/
noun
  1. 1.
    the quality or state of being strong, in particular.
    • physical power and energy.
      noun: strength
  2. 2.
    a good or beneficial quality or attribute of a person or thing.

Sometimes something just happens and you can't help but to ask, hmm, what's next? Then something may happen and you can't help to wonder what is the bigger plan here?  If I only had a crystal ball, or a sign from God, to know what could come next?

For the past month this has been what I have been feeling. Hit after hit. People I love are sick, people I love are struggling, and most close to me are trying to make hard decisions and choices with me. I understand that it "could be worse" or "this is a season" or "God only gives you as much as you can take..." but really? Things are so up in the air that I am not sure where the next few months will go or few years to come will go.

I try to breathe, like everyone says. I try not to be angry, or think negative thoughts, but for what? What's the point in not being angry sometimes? Life is hard. It never is easy and for me, each time I get "comfortable" it has it's way of becoming uncomfortable.

For now, I will just enjoy what I have and live day by day. Maybe minute by minute. Each day I pray and each day I talk to my angels in heaven. I hope they hear me. I know God has this, I truly do, but sometimes, I wish I knew what he was doing...