Life of BB

I am well aware that the tone around here lately has been quite somber. Sorry to be a buzz kill but this is life. Ups and downs. And sometimes it's on pause on down. So to take away some of that here are somethings that I want, am excited about, reading or love as of late. Want : Reading Loving Excited for the weekend and then to head to mom's. Happy for : This message and these wooden people

Found encouragement here : This perfect stranger's blog post: All things heart and home and These lyrics : "Don't worry about a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right. Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!" Rise up this mornin', Smiled with the risin' sun, Three little birds Pitch by my doorstep Singin' sweet songs Of melodies pure and true, Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:") Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right." Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!" Rise up this mornin', Smiled with the risin' sun, Three little birds Pitch by my doorstep Singin' sweet songs Of melodies pure and true, Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:" Singin': "Don't worry a

seems to be the thing I keep saying over and over. It applies to many things. My life, my friends, motherhood, being a wife, having a career etc. etc. Just not how I pictured it. I have a huge decision to make within the next few weeks that could be quite amazing. It will leave me more tired, challenged, scared and possibly in a better place than I am now. It's a tough choice to make or not, and I am struggling with it. I have given it up to God a bunch of times, only to take it back from Him and tackle it on my own. Clearly, this is the wrong choice to do but I am just so lost with which way to move. I keep remembering times I felt carefree and truly happy. Twice. I know they are around the corner again, in either what I pick to move. But for now, I am still.

For as long as I can remember, this particular diner has been the meeting place for my family and friends. When I was about 18, I would meet my mother and grandmother there practically every Saturday for dinner at 6. They attended church and I met up with them after for dinner. My grandmother would be the star of the show and of course, order the same two meals weekly. She would take her salad and if I can remember her dessert to go every single week. I have seen this diner all times of the day, morning, early morning, night, and late night.  It has been there for stressful talks, cries, happy celebrations and comfort. Weird a place you go to eat, can be all that right? Well it's true. There are a lot of great memories of gathering here with my family. And it has the best matzo ball soup around that can cure any sickness or heartache out there. The visits to the diner have gotten smaller in size for my family. It is now it's only Mr. B, Lil B and myself that attend, b

No words could ring more true than these. Especially, these days. This was/is our wedding song. We, of course chose it because it had a special meaning for us. But I also remember picking it for that simple line, "promise not to stop till I say when..." I will never say "when" in regards to Mr. B. Sure, every relationship has trials and tribulations; because ups and downs, are part of life, right? But I will never say stop. All those cliché things you hear when it comes to relationships, really apply here. He is my rock and my anchor. I am his silly putty and waves. We balance each other, and I thank God for that every day. He pushes me when I want to give up and he calms me when I can't see past the storm. I hope I can and have done the same for him. It's no secret that right now, my life, is upside down. The one thing that has kept me sane and kept me from giving up, is my family/friends. It's a small unit, that keep me strong when I ne

strength streNG(k)TH , strenTH / noun 1 . the quality or state of being strong, in particular. physical power and energy. noun: strength 2 . a good or beneficial quality or attribute of a person or thing. Sometimes something just happens and you can't help but to ask, hmm, what's next? Then something may happen and you can't help to wonder what is the bigger plan here?  If I only had a crystal ball, or a sign from God, to know what could come next? For the past month this has been what I have been feeling. Hit after hit. People I love are sick, people I love are struggling, and most close to me are trying to make hard decisions and choices with me. I understand that it "could be worse" or "this is a season" or "God only gives you as much as you can take..." but really? Things are so up in the air that I am not sure where the next few months will go or few years to come will go. I try to br

Our son turned one on Dec. 6th. It blows my mind just how fast a year can go when you measure and celebrate it by one month increments ! A few months before his birthday I began thinking about his first birthday party. I only had a few ideas then: I wanted a small family gathering at our house (our family is big enough as is, 24 is the number of close family members lol) I wanted it to have a theme At first, I thought a mustache party would be fun and was what it I wanted for the theme, but then I was looking around Pinterest and saw ideas for a "Winter ONEderland." I was smitten. After all, Lil B would only be one once, so that theme could only work for a first birthday. The only issue was I didn't like the traditional colors that most people used for it or the penguins that most of the parties seemed to have, so I keep looking for more ideas. When I looked on Etsy and found one invitation, I knew immediately that was it and it would help with the rest of t