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Good enough...

I am sure everyone has asked themselves this once or twice along their life, "Am I good enough?" For me, I ask myself this question weekly. It's hard to just go along course of life without asking this question. Well, for me it is.

When I was a kid, I would say I was a considered "nervous nelly". Be it my surroundings that caused my hyper sensitiveness or just my make up. Fast forward to my teenage/early twenty years when it was really just me. "Single" me. This "Beth" was extremely more care free and worried less about consequences/responsibility. She didn't last very long ;)

Over the years, I gained more and more responsibility, an awesome husband and now a precious son. Life changes you. Life molds you for sure. But maybe you are who you always were all the way from the start?

At 37, I have realized exactly who I am. It took a long time to get here and I am sure I still have more to go.I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I see myself as beautiful. I have come to know all of my favorite things. And I know I am very much a home body. I like to stick to a small circle of people I trust. When I love them, I really LOVE them. I love to host gatherings at my home, to share my home with them. If I invite you to my house, know I am very comfortable with you. I am not saying this as a prize, I am simply saying that my nerves tend to get in the way sometimes and if I let you in, where I feel most comfortable, know you are a gift to me.

I also know there is a big world out there, but I am happy with living local and spending time with my loved ones. I am happy with seeing the great big "world" through my kiddos eyes. Do you know how wonderful it was to watch him play in a mud puddle in my very own backyard??!! Do you know how it was amazing to see his face light up on a go kart? This to me is everything.



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